I find it a real pity.. But I know I must let go le..

I didnt wan to.. but he flare up at me.. Yes.. he flare up 1st..

I only told him i am not feeling happy and he starting by saying i don know anything..

I haven even say wat i am not happy with den suddenly after hearing wat he say.. I am super sadded.. Wat he mean by I don know anything..

I tried so hard to not bothering him when he is working.. let him slp early as he need to wake up early.. All i ask for is his sms.. at least I wont be the last one to know if something reali happen to him..

This morning, although i didnt receive his reply.. I was still happily doing the scrap book.. Pasting his ang pows he gave me last yr and this.. i tot its sweet... although i also gave him ang pow..

Jus now he flare up even his mum also ask him wats wrong.. I find something is wrong with his attitude.. Or maybe he is sick of me le.. He don wan to listen to me and when i ask him, he say " I don wan to listen so don listen lo!" While i was telling him that I am very deeply sadded by him saying i don know anything.. This is doubly sad.. I cried.. I don know y I cried.. but the pain is tearing my heart apart.. even now my tears are still dropping.. I don know y.. but maybe I have reali given him my heart again.. after that incident tats y i am feeling so hurt again.. I promised to give him a chance although i was constantly reminded of the incident.. I cant stand the look on her face can.. SLUT! Anyway, he wont understand de la..

Suddenly, i had this urge to start my life anew.. meaning without him and start to accept new guys into my life.. I haven been with guys for a long time.. I mean guy fren outing or dating.. umm i guess i got to learn.. there are so many things i need to learn..

JIA YOU!!!