I am angry... I don understand why guys are so DA NAN REN.. They insist that we girls listen to them/their part of their story but why dont they ever listen to ours? Today is 18th April 2006 1.21am.. I ended this beautiful story personally.. Very very sad.. sob sob.. He can only say how sad he is.. how angry he is.. but wat abt me? I am hurt this time.. v v extremely hurt.. I don think we can ever b back together again.. I love him alot de lo.. But i reali don expect him to say such ugly words to me.. I think i will slap him hard in the face if he ever come and find me again.. I don know if i can forgive him.. But i will try hard to forget him.. He is my 1st love le.. painful.. i reali don think i am his 1st love lo.. So hurting his words jus now.. Reali break my heart le.. and ask me to shut up... and yelled at me.. I don think i can think straight anymore... its not my fault lo.. or only partly my fault.. Wat was he thinking when he say shampoo and body foam can be shared but charger cannot.. I think he is selfish lo.. But the main point is not this.. he explained le.. and i understand.. guys and girls jus have different meaning in their words.. expression is also different but why cant he hear my side of the story? and why mus he always say something to win sympathy? like that day i wan to show u something but u ignore me.. or i am actually sick.. or i am not well the whole day.. i don think this is nice lo.. but i will always give in when he does this.. not this time le lo.. And does it means tat if i bring the toiletries everytime i mus bring them this time too? Cant he offer to help.. I already say there will be wars in my house tml onwards lo.. But i guess he jus don love me enough.. oh ya.. and he said.. " I WOULD RATHER SPENT TIME ON MY STUDIES THAN ON YOU QUARRELING LO!!!" So loud.. I m not deaf de lo.. And its not true tat i always disturb u de lo.. I reali intend to leave u alone in the chalet to help u study de lo.. I SWEAR!! I jus miss u.. sad...

I didnt think i will end this story so soon de.. I intend this blog to go on forever and ever.. I wan everyone to share our story and hope everyone will have their own beautiful story jus like ours.. But..... it is not meant to be mine story i guess.. JIA YOU IRENE!!! You will find urs soon.. lolx..

I am sad... sob sob.. feel like crying but i am not going to cry anymore.. I m deeply hurt le.. i cannot cry i mus b STRONG!!! JIA YOU!!

TO MY DEAREST ETHAN, (ethan) is the name i give u de lo.. I don think anything else can proof more than this name how much i love you de lo.. I search everywhere for this name lo.. every other name jus don seems to fit u lo.. And to me, you are still the best lo.. But i don know wat comes into u this few days lo.. anyway, I deeply feel its a waste to spoil this beautiful love between us.. But.... nvm.. If u think i am those gals who wanted credit for all my work u are WRONG lo.. I put up with alot of things and sacrifices alot for u.. Not everything I told u lo.. This does not mean that things i nv tell u are those i have nv been through lo.. I have been through so much.. much much more than jus borrowing ur bag space to put the toiletries lo.. ( YOU USED THEM TOO!!!) AND MY BAGS ARE REALI FULL!!! you saw them urself and YOU ARE WRONG AGAIN.. NOT EVERYTHING U HELP ME LO... I carry my own travel bag when we went thailand lo.. I nv once let u touch them although u offer to help me lo.. I would put them on the floor lo.. I m not as stupid or useless as u say me lo.. I will nv let u help anymore.. I will not receive anymore favours from u.. (UNLESS MY PARENTS ASK YOU, ITS NONE OF MY BUSINESS!!!)

I reali don understand wat wrong i did to receive this from you but anyway, don let me see u ever again.. Oh and by the way, I annnouced our separation to my sistas and they are pretty shocked.. but anyway, i will be strong.. like i have always.. :)

Oh and also i know u will slp well tonight.. so good night.. I don think u will ever read this blog.. cos YOU NV CARE!!